i think one of the hardest thing in life is having to live with your decision. bad decision mostly, but sometime good things isn't permanent, there will always be "sang hitam" when "sang putih" keeps you contented.

regret is something that comes rarely and not frequent for me. but sometimes they do. and sometimes i want them to but it never came. and i often thinking, where did i go wrong? how can i do something bad without feeling remorse or regret? i wanna feel regret. i wanna feel bad. but i just can't.

in the brave one, jodie foster asks herself when she shot dead a street punk, "why my hands aren't trembling? why i don't feel guilty?"

bravery, or foolishness?


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