there's a cloud of happiness surrounds me after the exam's over, and i passed. but, no one really care but me, and it's okay. i like it that way. i don't have anything or anyone to prove and the pressure all come down to me. i gladly say that i did it all for me.

nevertheless, i'm glad that me and my friends have made it. they care, a little, i guess. and i'm happy the fact that i didn't sacrifice my holidays just for the damn exam. that is a proof that you could have the best of both world.

i have some friends came over jakarta the weekend before the exam. and i did what i think a friend should, i entertain them, at the risk of my exam of course. but i'm glad i did. given one more time, i would do the same. sometimes there's an ecstacy in helping other people out, especially if you do it sincerely. i'm not bragging, i'm serious. i love helping people, even sometimes what they asked was hard but i do it anyway. most times, what you see of me is what you get. when i say it's okay i can do it, i meant it really, i do it.

but i'm no angel. i found myself in some uncomfortable situations sometimes.

what i'm trying to say is that when you do everything all by yourself, because you wanted it, everything would be easier. and be kind to people. and hate assholes and bitches, but those haven't proving their hidden bitchiness trait yet, be kind. B-E kind.

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