i'm just so unhappy. i am surprised at how i handle all these things. i don't say i handled it pretty well so far, but i handle them and got them in my hand nonetheless. so it is true that you won't be tested with something beyond your ability. and that mankind is a strong creature, that's how we survived plagues and climate changes and alien invaders.

sometimes, i do hope there is a parallel universe where i can be whatever or whoever i wanna be. where i choose what i want without any obligations or the notion that i supposed to. where i'm some kinda lean, tall, cool kid who everyone wants to be with and to become. 

to that guy, live well my king. you enjoy, i will hold as long as i can. :)

g